white swan 0n the lake . .

hurrmm..tired. tired waiting for s0mething that we adore so much..ashleigh , i may not be so perfect as your syue , but i can promise that this soul alway's your. my mind , every step , every breath that i take . .always thinking of u ..maybe yes . i should forget about you . you seem like didnt bother a bit about me . none . never . until now . you didnt even give me a call. .i'm tired of waiting . .somebody please tell ashley i love him so much . . .

the day he went away . . .

he shut up . no news . no c0ntact . i miss him . ashleigh . . i love him so much . eventhough i'm the 2nd gurl , i dont mind . i d0nt care what they said , all i need is him . he said he love me , asked me 2 make my pr0mise . yes . i do make it . he want pr0ve . i had pr0ve it . i will n always will. .but why he did this to me . he hurt me . never texts me nor calling . .he said he didnt hve crdits but y when i saw in his facebo0k he n his girlfriend chat , his girlfriend asked 4 forgiveness coz didnt answer his phone call n his texts. .i didnt mean to disturb their relationship but b4 we get started he told me that he n his girlfriend has been lost contact with each other since the last few month. .n now . .seem like he didnt need me . supp0se i realize this fr0m the beginning . s0metimes , i do think that i need to let him go n open a new b0ok . but i cant . ashleigh meant so much to me . he is my live , my soul . do have lot guys wanna flirt me n hve me to be their special girl . but i didnt interested at all . never . .still fresh in my mind our 1st met on 15/2/2011. he stay at selangor n i was at kL. . it was my birthday . my friends did a surprised party 4 me . .i was h0ping that he will be there , but he didnt . the reason is , he d0nt kn0w how to get to our place . i accept that . n then . . i went to his c0ndo eventh0ugh i lost that nite . the clock was p0inted at 1.45am when i reached his house . supp0sed i have to g0t back at midnight coz i hve to go to the airp0rt at 4am coz my flight was at 7.20am . i didnt even packed all my stuff just to met him . it was so lovely morning even we didnt talk so much . perfect memories of him .cant he see how much i love him ? ? ? when i was at his h0use , he was busy on the phone with s0meone else . n when i asked ,he told me it was his c0usin . i'm a lit'bit disapp0inted of it but what can i do . .i accept the way he is . n now . . .i lost him . no phone calls . . .no texts . ..none. i'm waiting from day to day . n i always will. .